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9/2/2012

2012-02-09T22:31:00.002+08:00

Hello, I'm kinda back! (:

Today spend time with my baby..
So cute of him..

He asked me, "Could you believe we together for almost a year?"

My reply, "Yeah lo, kinda hard to believe that we together for so long cause maybe i never been so long in a relationship that long? "

HAHA! really cant believe, but still, find that im really happy for the 10th month.. Thanks for being there for me.. I feel loved. ;D

2011-10-14T23:15:00.002+08:00

Feel like crying BUT at the same time don't want to...

2011-09-23T22:20:00.004+08:00

Was thinking alot of things nowadays.
Sometimes it gets too tired and stuck there.
I need more rest with myself.Find that i need to love myself more.
But wondering how to love.

"Lifes are full with contradictions" - lyn
Very very true.
There are things that are being looked at a different view.
Different people have different perceptive.
But what if you are standing at a view whereby you see all the different view points?
What are you going to do?
I just stood there.
Because i dont know what to do & say to make everything better.
I might not have the say.
So, im going to say this here..
Everyone is telling me im having hard times.
Biasness.

Out with baby just now.
His hugs make me feel better..
This make me feel safe & have a place for me to stick to..
Gonna miss you for days.
Cause its your class chalet..
Please becareful your leg & yourself. (:

2011-09-10T21:19:00.003+08:00

Do everyone think that they are useless when they can do a thing?

Wondering.. whether everyone got their own talents towards some specialist?
Then.. what specialist i have?
I cant really find one..
Feel kind of demoralised when i think about this.

Why am i always afraid of moving forward when i got a bad experience?
Why am i always the one that are burden to everyone?
Why am i here to create so many troubles?
Thinking a lot.. But everyone will just say..

"Everyone got their own specialist! Just that you haven't found yours?"

Then can i ask? Where is it for mind..
Just feel so useless sometimes but what to do??
Stay there? Stone? Don't care? Don't bother? Don't think?

The problem is, can i?

When worlds getting more and more complicated, can we still act like we don't see it?
Just venting some anger~
BYE! Super headache nowadays~ ):

2011-08-18T22:25:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 5TH ANNIVERSARY!!

HAHAHHAHAHA!
Remember i pissed you off that day? (:
BECAUSE i didnt tell you where we are going.
Sorry baby! ):
But i have alot of fun with you.
We had our movie marathon (2 movies only) at LOT1!
Know why he is pissed off already? (:
MUACKS! <3
Aww~ this photo very sweet right?(: This is the photo that i liked! (: Dont know whether you will shy anot.. but! heehes! i feel very happy.

Thanks baby for pampering me! - i need alot! <3

2011-08-18T22:14:00.002+08:00

Outing with DIANASAUR! (:

We went to causeway EMPIRE STATE! ;D
Break fast timing after our party world.
Had alot of fun with her.
She was like a elder sister that can take of me.
Aww.. so pampering! hahahaha!

Pictures below to see what we eat~ (:

2011-08-03T22:46:00.002+08:00

Missingyou~
Baby uh.. how are you? (:
Everything is okay ya?
We have few more days to go~
Must hang on there okay?

Sorry for today.
Should be more caring & thoughtful..
Knowing that you are already feel not that good..
& im being so unreasonable and irritating.
Sometimes, find that irritating is part of me.. ;D
But, i will try my best to reduce it okay? (:
Hahs. But i like to see your face being disturbed. ;D

** No offense **

I will not be too irritating this month ya?
Hahs. But after this month, can i .. ?!
Be irritating? (: hahahahhahahahahahaha!
Muacks. Sayang you la~ (:

27moredaystogo~

2011-08-01T22:46:00.003+08:00

Happy ANNIVERSARY! (:

Its our 4th month.. ;D

Didnt take much picture~

Almost all the pictures are with him.. ):

SO, temporary post this past pictures & this present that i buy for us~

AWW~ AM I SWEET?! ;D

Even though its only 4th months together but we can be longer than 7th month ya?

Things that we been through together wasn't as easy as ABC.

Things that make us endure each other are actually benefits.:D

Things that i need to thank you :

Thanks baby for enduring my hot-temper this few months. (:

Thanks you for always be there for me no matter what.

Your pampering that i never feel before make me really content.

How you make my tears to become smile..

Thanks for being so happy with me, cause i love your smile..

Thanks for being a small boy when you are with me, I LOVE IT.

Efforts that we put through will be harder and more challenging..

We can overcome it right baby?

I love you baby~ (:

&&&& 29 more days to go! (: jiayous! (; muacks!

2011-08-01T22:35:00.004+08:00

Outing with VAN!
We go bugis junction to see my FAV ARTIST!
LIANG WEN YIN! (:

OMG! so pretty la~
Must thanks van to help me talk photo of her!
OMG! was damn damn damn excited~
After that we went to watch movie with her~
I gave her my first time.. ;D
WATCHING MOVIE AT ILUMA.

Was not bad and enjoyable day~
Pictures can speak thousand words!
Pictures are below~ (:

2011-07-16T21:15:00.003+08:00

This is what happen when i go to game design workshop.
This is not because that i am not listening or what..
Its just that, i always missed out things.

I can't focus man~
Its damn tired to continue study from 530 to 8~
And when i reach home its around 8 plus 9..
Tml still got school~

WHY are we so busy... ):
tired tired tired~ ):

Aww.. IMY eh.. ):

How? i know i started to demand quite a number of things..

I will try to control okay ya? (:

LOVE you~ (:

Wish we can go out more often. (:

2011-07-03T21:44:00.002+08:00

Was stoning all along today.
Not feeling good.
What to do.
Dont know why like mood swing.
Therefore, i when down to buy my chocolate!
WORST THING is... no white chocolate!
Spoil my day more.

was doing my HOTA NOW!!

What spoil my day more is..

Talking to someone today (maybe everyday) & fucking no reply.

CB.

Expect me to reply you when you talk to me? FAT HOPE!

Not to be rude or what..

Just that , i feel that im invisible.

Not wanted by anyone that's all.

Think i will get use to it with this feeling.

Not angry with anyone else..

BUT myself.

2011-06-24T22:02:00.004+08:00

Post of Girls outing & Yesterday drinking outing~ (:

Girls outing!

taken at the CHOMP CHOMP eating place at serangoon! NICE! CAN'T stop myself from eating! (:

After eating, we went to somewhere near by to buy forlicks! this is nice man! First time eating this. (:

After that we went prawing..

Was compete-ing how many prawns we FISHED!

They are better than me!

I only fished 1!

This is yesterday drinking day!

Went with lyn juan, and rp dogs! hahaha! (:

Not bad.. was funny throughout.

Didnt drink much. (:

Dont have photo with juan one..

Take photo with her, but haven take from her.

Will upload once i get~ (:

2011-06-24T21:42:00.003+08:00

Sharlene's wedding dinner! (:

Didnt get must photos but its in facebook.

SO, you know what to do right? ;D

this is how the setting of the table look like. poker card was given as a gift. (:

this is my second sister & second sister bf. PRETTY RIGHT! (:
After wedding, we go to st james powerhouse to drink! (: this is my dream job!! the picture on top! ;D

;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D

This is my doggy! hahahahaha! KIKI GOH!(:

This is her before cutting hair..
this is her, after cutting hair! LOOK like.. FOX RIGHT! the tail ar.. so funny! (:

This is what my DARLING COOK FOR HIS DINNER!

LOOK NICE RIGHT!(:

HINTING: when are you cooking for me? )):

2011-06-24T21:26:00.003+08:00

BACK TO TECK WHYE PRIMARY SCHOOL~

SO MANY MEMORIES WHEN I STEPPED IN TO MY SCHOOL.

the place we used to assemble when we stepped into school (7.15am) for the mass-reading. (:

this photo is.. the way up to hall. the place we use to assembled after recess!

this is the place we used to stand and hang around looking at small fat boys trying to play basketball! hahahahaha! (:

this the teck whye primary basketball court! (:

the music room (no air-con) for last time trumpeter for our sectional! OMG! so excited~ hahaha! (:

Brought back alot of memories for my cca (BAND).

So long since i last go back to school.

Very excited, the feeling was like so real.

Went there with tiao zhi.

WAS lepaking before the conductor actually ask us to help out.

I trying to teach the french horns and tz baritone!

Have fun that day. (:

2011-06-24T21:24:00.001+08:00

going to have a super mass post for today! (:

Lots of pictures upcoming and some text descriptions! (:

Morning Movie with you! (:

2011-06-04T22:43:00.005+08:00

Morning Movie with YOU!

&& We don't expect to have lot of people..

BUT to our surprise, families x10 ++ was there! (:

Never take photos~

So, i replaced with old photos we take before..

After breakfast at Long John Silver..

He was forced to watch movie with me at lot1!

We watched.. Kungfu Panda 2 ..

Again, not his preferred movie!! ((:

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

But thanks baby.. ((:

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWW~~

&&& IM not afraid of things that is cold!

hahahahahahaha! ((:

You know what i mean right! (:

Studying with girls!

2011-06-04T22:33:00.004+08:00

Was studying with girls few days ago... i guess..

& this is what i do when i study for my AOS.

Was so tired~~ )):

&& lyn try out tie-ing on my hair.

Didn't manage to take the photo, but the front view is like this.

YOU know, studying is really sucks!

JUST feel, nowadays studying was not the easy.. ):

KNOW-ing, it is a must to study, what can we do? ):

2011-05-20T11:42:00.003+08:00

Kinda feel that i didn't upload for so long, so at least im trying to post something..

This is how i feel during my lesson today~

Kinda, cannot sleep, tired and no appetite~ )):

In this lesson, history of art?

My faci is playing some card games with the students in front~

AMAZING RIGHT?!

Lesson still not bad just that our team getting less and less people each day~ ):

This is a boy that dont like to take photo by himself~

watched numbers of movie, and didn't really get any pictures for the movie tickets and such..

Basically because i could not remember about that..

Therefore, i put this picture here~ (:

Ohya, eaten long john breakfast with him and get 2 straw hearts from him~

aww~ so sweet right?

&&& its not that i dont want to make for him, just that...

IM NOT GOOD AND DONT KNOW HOW TO MAKE THAT~ )):

&&& lesson end~ waiting for this boy to dismiss from lesson~

some sort walk pass his class and saw the back view~ ((:

4 hours to go to see him~ ((:

Be patience with the lesson today okay?

even though i know~ IT WILL BE VERY LONG! >.<

2011-04-08T23:48:00.003+08:00

ULCER )):

SO PAIN~~~~

Just used Lyn and Boy method~

PUT SALT~

MORE PAIN! OMG!

PAIN UNTIL I WANT TO CRY ALREADY~ )):

BUT NO CHOICE..

My mouth start to swollen~

Look at my picture and see how serious~ )):

SADED!

EMO-ING~ )):

Outings

2011-04-08T23:35:00.002+08:00

4 April 2011

Went out with boy~

Watched movie the "world invasion" at vivo city.

Also, went back to visit and see my aunties and manager..

Had lunch at a hawker center..

And believe me, the food is damn damn damn nice!

Even though its hot and stuffy~ ((:

Didnt take much pictures cause we forgotten~ ((:

Had lots of fun with you~

Waiting for our next outing~ ((:

The things that what BOY do for me~

Aww~ so sweet right! ((:

Thanks baby~ I appreciate this~

I will keep it at a safe place now~ ((:

PROMISE, wont let my nephew break anything again! )):

2011-04-01T23:40:00.002+08:00

BBQ AT LIM CHU KANG WITH GIRLS ANND BOYS! ((:

Had fun there even though there are lots of mosquitoes there! ((:

Some photos are below~ ((:

Overall, we sit there, chatting and look at dogs~ ((:

OHYA, MANGO PUDDING WAS DAMN NICE!((:

OHYA! I WANT TO BE SLIM DOWN~

BUT I DONT HAVE THE MOTIVATIONS~ )):

HAIYO.. SO HARD SO HARD~

I AM GOING TO DO SIT-UPS LATER ON~ )):

TML, GOING TO MEET MY BOY~ ((:

LOOKING FORWARD!

NIGHTS PEEPS! ((:

2011-03-29T01:44:00.003+08:00

Today is all about..

Waiting for the pet shop people to fetch my dog~

THEY are not puncture!

Make me wait for 3 hours like that! OMG!

I need my sleep! PIANG!

And Baby, come my house to spend time with me~

Loving it~

AWW~ SO SWEET~ HEEHES~ ((:

No pictures taken today..

SO.. mainly words! ((:

Night peeps! ((:

Sweet dreams & Sleep tight~

Tired.

2011-03-20T23:53:00.001+08:00

Idontknowwhatiswrongwithmenowadays..

Whocanhelpmeout?

Outing with you

2011-03-20T23:47:00.003+08:00

Have a movie with boy.

We went all the way to cathay to watch movie~

Its been so long, we had not watch movie~

Had dinner before our movie.

Ate popeyes! hahaha! NICE!

And those pictures below are only part of photo taken.

AND obviously, those pictures are not taken by me!

((: but had a lot of fun still~ ((:

SURPRISE BIRTHDAY!

2011-03-12T00:32:00.006+08:00

9th March 2011 - 10th March 2011~

This is my birthday celebration surprise that MY GIRLS organised!

I love die you all man~

Im so touched & happy & shocked when i removed my blindfold~

Was stunned for quite long and realised what was happening!

The feeling is like~ OMG OMG OMG! WHAT HAPPEN~ ((:

But i am really happy..

This is the best celebration i ever had~

Story of this surprise celebration..

Lyn and cheng come to my house blindfold me and bring me out and taking cab to the chalet~

And.. im blindfolded for 2 hours plus.. hahahha!

And tada.. i am at the chalet without knowing them planning for a very long time.. ((:

AWW~~ love you all la~ ((:

And when i removed my blindfold..

So many people are there in front of me.. *damn shocked!*

Because thought that we are actually going to kbox..

BUT! OMG! girls, my classmates and RP mates are there in front of me!

Ps: I love you girls and guys.. This surprise are really AWESOME! I like it very much!

And the masterminds, thanks for the efforts to come out with this.. OMG, i still think that it was like a dream~ ((: However, i really appreciate this. MUACKS! ((:

More pictures will be uploaded~ ((;

And also, videos! ((: OMG!

Changes

2011-01-23T14:50:00.004+08:00

Changes between last year and this year~

How is it?

Is it better? ((:

Anyway, i love my class~ ((:

1 Jan 2011

2011-01-01T21:59:00.014+08:00

WHO AM I GOING TO THANKS?!
WHO ARE THE ONES THAT I LOVED?!

Of course is you guys right? ((:

GIRLS!!

You are all that i treasures alot. We've go through up & down.
We are always that strong, even though we got alot of fights, less outings...
However, i believe, all of us remember each other.
I LOVE YOUS!

Cherylyn
You are the one that taught me alot of things..
You teach me how to be strong, know how to differentiate what is right and wrong..
Alot of things i can share with you with no doubts.
&&& You are always there for for me.

Anyway, i kinda use to YOU scolding me..
I like you to calm me down.
I like you to be optismistic that cheers people up.
I like to spend time with you, talking about girls gossips.. (:
At least i am awake and knowing what is going wrong... ((((((::::::
HAHAHAHAHA!
Whenever i am sad & lost my way of directions, you are there to correct me.
You are amazing! DA JIE DA! hahahaha! =]

OW XIAO JUAN!

What i like about you, you are straightforward. You wont hide what you dislike and like.
You are also one that i like to share my things to... IF you noticed.
Like to spend time with you even thought it is boring.
I like gossips with you cause you like GOSSIPING AS WELL!

Also, you will give me advices and methods to solve problem.
You are a good listener as well. ((:
A good friend indeed...
You CHANGED for us, and makes it easier to talk to you.. hehehehes!
I like to eat LOTS LOTS LOTS with you!!!!!! (cause i will not be the only PIG!)
&&& You are awesome!

VANESSA

I like when you have a cute cute face~ TSK! ENVY!
You will always gives us the top news and LOVES TO gossips!
So, i feel its okay to gossip with you!
You are always caring and helpful if you are not EMO!
HAHAHAHAH!

&&&& I LIKE YOUR GONGNESS, cause i will not be lonely! hehehs! ((:

YEECHENG!

I must say THANK YOU first!
It is because when i need help in photoshop all those~~
When i'm in class struggling for my DMA, i can ask you!
You are always that smart that brings you to SP!

You got a GUAI GUAI look which make people feel that you WONT SAY VULGAR!
HEHEHEHES! But you are really GUAI!((:
What i like about you is no matter what difficulties you met, you are always STRONG to defend yourself or solving problems! ((:

BOY!

How lucky am i to know you in semester 2..
I love your smile that makes me smile..
I love your eyes that looked like a "LADY EYES"!
You make me walk out a pathetic life.
You are like a sunshine, always smile, lovely and talkative...

Without you, i dont know what is happy.
Without you, i will be still so restless..
Without you, i dont know how to socialise...

We got number for things similar..
Favourite number, fruit, food, "hobbies", instruments...
Baby boy, you are being loved & pampered..
&&& You are currently not available! SOWWIES!
Because YOU ARE MINE! LOVES!

BENJAMIN, BENGJIE, KELVIN TAY, YONGCHUAN, TING WEI, JUNQING,WENCONG

You guys are AWESOME! You are always supportive, cute and FUN!
I like to go out with you guys to jump jump, play play, eat eat~
You all are like KIDS!

&&& All of you are not to be forget! It is because we are always good friends!
Without knowing you guys, I WILL NOT KNOW WHO ARE GOOD & BAD!

Survey

2010-12-27T23:56:00.006+08:00

I steal this from vanessa's blog.
Since i got nothing to post & waiting for someone to sleep.
It's a LONG one seriously!
If you dont have the patience to finish, just simply click the "X" on the top left corner!
Thanks! ((:

1. Are you ready to answer 99 questions?
Kind of.

2. Is the person you last text single?
Yes.

3. Do you get jealous easily?
In past - super + easy jealous. Now- not really.

4. Are you wasting your time on the person you like?
NOPE.

5. What are you currently waiting for?
Waiting for you.

6. Do you think more about the past, the present, or the future?
More to the past and presents.

7. Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
OF COURSE, someone i LOVE!

8. Do you really love the last person you said I LOVE YOU to?
Yeah. Of course.

9. Who were the last people you saw besides your family?
Khairul?

10. Do you have nice eyes?
Nope. TINY, SMALL EYES!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Qns 11 onwards~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

11. Have you ever received a love letter that is more than a page long?
Nope. Nowadays people uses messages! MY GOD!

12. If something was wrong, who is the first girl you would go to?
Lyn + Juan?

13. Who are you thinking of right now?
Who else right?!

14. Is this year the best year of your life?
Not really.

15. How do you feel about DIET DR Pepper?
What's that?

16. Do you work out?
NO NO NO NO NO!

17. Have you ever thought someone died when they actually didnt?
No eh..

18. Does your bedroom need cleaning?
YEAH! WHO WILL HELP ME! ):

19. Do you prefer flowers or chocolate?
Chocolate! I prefer food my god!

20. Would you rather take a relationship really slow or really fast?
Normal?

+++++++ Qns 21 onwards ++++++++++++++++++
21. Have you ever hang out with someone of the opposite sex?
Yes. (:

22. Are you comfortable with your height?
Yes, i already used to it. SO! YA!

23. Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
YES! OF COURSE! ((::

24. Is there anyone in your life that can always make you smile?
Yes.

25. Do you like thunderstorms?
Not really, i prefer rain.

26. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
Yes.

27. How fast does your mood change?
Really fast. But must depends also.((:

28. What are the things that can never be joked about with you?
MY GIRLS!

29. What do you always take with you?
Hp, wallet, keys.

30. When is your birthday?
10th march

31. Where is the weirdest place you have ever slept at?
Not really.

32. Are there anything on your walls?
No.

33. Do you bite your tongue, your lip, or your cheek more often?
LIPS.

34. Do you think you can last in a relationship for more than a year?
Trying... Maybe this coming one. Hope so.

35. Do you crack your knuckles?
YES!

36. Do you feel comfortable getting up and giving speeches?
Yes. I will feel that awkward and speechless.

37. Who did you like last year?
Not sure.

38. Would you ever want to swim with the sharks?
Maybe i cant try! hahaha!

39. Does anyone know your passwords besides you?
Yes. ((:

40. What would you do if you found out the person you like has a girlfriend?
Leave quietly.

41. What is the non-alcoholic beverage you had?
COKE COKE COKE!

42. Do you miss anyone right now?
Yes, girls & boy.

43. Do you have a box where you keep all your important things?
No. you want to help me?

44. How many times have you dyed your hair?
2.

45. Can you count past 100?
Yes.

46. Would you ever date anyone your parents disapproved of?
Yes. I did that almost everytime.

47. Who introduced you to your boyfriend?
No one.

48. Would you survive if you were abandoned in the wilderness?
No. I will die because of hunger.

49. Are you afraid of shots?
Nope. ((:

50. Is there someone you can tell anything to?
Yes.

51. If you must have someone's name tattooed on you, who's name would it be?
GIRLS.

52. How old will you be in 17 months?
20. =.=" CB.

53. What is the most memorable thing that have happened to you this holiday?
Dont know.

54. Have anyone ever called you perfect before?
NO! Only got people tell me, "No one is perfect"?

55. What is your favorite movie?
A walk to remember. The first english movie i watched.

56. Are any of your friends taller than you?
Fuck obvious! NO ONE IS SHORTER THAN ME CAN!

57. Have you ever like someone whose name started with letter B?
Yes.

58. What is your favorite part of the song that you listening to right now?
Listening to Lucifer now. The front part ba?

59. Have you ever cried your heart out?
Who dont?

60. Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of this year?
Nope. People will change.

61. Is there a difference between like and love?
Yes. The spelling is different!

62. Does it bother you when someone say that they will call you back later but they didn't?
Depends whether im at good mood or bad mood.

63. Do you speak any other language other than English?
Yes.

64. Did 2010 treat you good?
Not too bad.

65. Do you think you were raised well?
OK ba.. quite.

66. Could you name all 50 states and point them out on the map?
No. Not really. If without refering to anything.

67. Are you anybody's bestfriend?
Yes, i hope so!

68. Where was the last place you were when you got sick?
School.

69. Have you ever smuggled something into America?
I never even went there before.

70. Who is your favorite superhero?
Maybe, cardcaptor sakura.

71. Can you say the alphabet backward?
Yes, if slowly.

72. Do you prefer using a pencil or a pen?
Pencil. Cause i can edit!

73. Have any of your 11:11 wish come true before?
Not at all!

74. Do you get bad headaches?
Yes. most of the time.

75. Are liars or cheaters worst?
LIARS!

76. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Yes. *SORRY SORRY*

77. Does it matter if your bf smokes?
No, if i really love him. Maybe dont smoke in front of me! BUT I DISLIKE. )):

78. Are your hands or your feet usually colder?
Feet.

79. What is your favorite type of flower?
I dont like flower.

80. Do you think two people can last forever?
I dont believe forever. But ALWAYS till they die.. I believe. ((:

81. Do you consider yourself lucky?
Yes, to be in my family. ((:

82. Are there anybody that cares about you more than themselves?
Hmm.. THINK SO... HOPE SO.. ((:

83. Who is the ugliest person you saw today?
ME? In my mirror.

84. Do you prefer freedom or safety?
Safety. I dont like people risking their lives.

85. Have any song ever made you cry?
Yes.

86. Have any book ever made you cry?
No. I dont really read book. ((:

87. Is the world crumbling into pieces?
No.

88. How many states in the united states have you ever been to before?
I NEVER BEEN THERE ...

89. Where is the place you grow up at?
Singapore.

90. Is your handwritting small, big or normal?
Normal.

91. What is the first thing you will say when you pick up a phone call?
I dont remember leh.. Think is hello?

92. Have anyone ever said that they wanted to marry you?
No.

93. Is your birthday on a holiday?
I think so. (:

94. Do you cry during a romantic show?
Depends. ((:

95. Do you always answer you phone?
Last time yes, now, like cannot hear the vibration and phone rang.

96. Have anyone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you?
Yes.

97. When was the last time you lied?
Dont remember.

98. Are you allergic to anything?
Yes. Medicine. )):

99. Are you ticklish?
Dont think so. ((:

Photos updated.

2010-11-24T13:46:00.005+08:00

Photos that i did not post

Megamind~

2010-11-07T11:51:00.004+08:00

Megamind was not bad~
Watched with Juan, Andrew,Van, Andrew's sisters and friends.

After that, went boyle - clubbing
Clubbing with ALL my sisters.
Was not bad too~~
They make me realised alot of things~
Thanks alot~
Thanks azri~ Thanks for.. ((:

Ku guo jiu hao le~

Will use this time to forgive and forget~

It might take years but, you know, I WILL.

Juan's Birthday.

2010-11-07T11:41:00.004+08:00

UPDATED~

Finally trying not to be lazy & update~
Okay~ BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JUAN JUAN~~
18th years old already~
Somehow, i am looking forward for my 18th birthday NEXT YEAR~~~ hah.
I feel so YOUNG~~

Had lot of fun~
In short, night activites - night cycling.
Cycled from ECP to CHANGI.
Pictures taken~

Fly kite on 17/10/10

2010-10-20T21:52:00.013+08:00

Outing with my cousins, cousin's friend & sister!
Chiwawa (PEANUT) and jack russel (TAZY) was there~~
Prepared our food and went there~
Fly kite -> West coast park Mac donald -> HOME!

HAD LOTS OF FUN~~
&&& I brought back with lots of pictures.

Jurong point

2010-10-17T01:04:00.003+08:00

Outing with my 2nd & 3rd sister + bf & sharlene today.
Search for my sister shoes over there.

Had our food at Carl's jr.
1st time i get to eat carl's jr.
Not bad~~~ && i finished all my food! hah!

zongxi's 19th birthday

2010-10-17T00:34:00.001+08:00

SWIMMING SESSION

2010-10-13T16:03:00.004+08:00

Yesterday (12/10/10) : Swimming with LYN.

Cabbed there~
Swim with children in a ADULT swimming pool~
Can you IMAGINE?!

They are DAMN DAMN DAMN GOOD!
They are adorable as well~ hah!
Swim until 9pm & after that walked home~~
Had a good sleep after that~ ((:
&&&& HAD LOTS OF FUN~

WARNING TO OW XIAO JUAN, ENG XIAO JING~
Must join us next time okay?! HAH~

DOWN TO BUGIS

2010-10-13T15:51:00.005+08:00

Time: NOT SURE
Date: 11/10/10
Venue: Bugis.

Outing with GIRLS & CHEESY~~~
Juan & Lyn get ONE WHITE TEDDY BEAR each~
&&& Van get her RILAKKUMA LAMP~~

Had KFC for lunch & KOI for tea break~~
&&&&&& GOOD NEWS TO SAY, CHENG CUT BANGS!

SENTOSA.

2010-10-10T16:44:00.010+08:00

Went Sentosa with Cheng at ard ~ 12plus.
Reached at - 1plus~2.
Meet up with Tay's group.
These guys build SEAWEED castles~
&&& THEY are like KIDS when building it! hah.
Can you imagine?! hah.

I've complaint alot of time when we reached Siloso Beach.
BECAUSE, It's really DAMN HOT!

Lyn & Gab , Juan & Vanessa joined us at 4plus ~ 6.
Waiting for them before we go in to the water.
Everything was good!
&&& HAD lots of fun! REALLY!

PRAWNING.

2010-10-10T16:22:00.006+08:00

Friday night (08/10/10) : Prawning.

Even though i dont like prawn!
Because i have NO PATIENCE~
BUT! I still enjoyed to spend time with Cheng & Juan.

Prawning till 2 + ,
Then cabbed home.

SIMPLE.SHORT.SWEET

2010-10-05T23:18:00.002+08:00

Just want to lead a simple life.

In love with Elva's new album song, cuo de ren.

2010-09-13T23:46:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, its better to keep everything in you heart than writing out with words in the blog. ((:

NIGHTS EVERYONE!

TML WILL BE A BETTER DAY, LOOKING FORWARD FOR TML! ((:

LASTLY, I LOVE MY FRIENDS.

2010-08-25T17:38:00.004+08:00

Sometimes human are like this :

1. undecisive

2. having doubts

3. would even wonder how many "WHYs" they must encounter

I dont know why i will start typing here about these

But i find that, with these things in out mind, we can think better.

Everything that we are in, its good to have a reasonable doubt.

In these kind of situation, consequences = sad -> regret-> teardrops -> memories

I find that this is a routine.

But when you are able to overcome it, it will never be your problem.

But bear in mind, we will ends this.

Its a part of you, but its time to let go.

We might not meant to be together.

You have your life, i have mine.

I will be OKAY~!

Friends are way better than lover.

2010-08-14T13:40:00.004+08:00

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!

Somehow, i missed my classmates.

W34k is my semester 1's class.

I will always remember it!

Maybe, i might not see my classmates again...

But hope they will be fine!

Even though i am not that close to them, but i will still miss them.

I really learned alot of things from them!

GOING OUT WITH MY GIRLS LATER ON!

AND AND AND ITS YEE CHENG'S BIRTHDAY! ((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YEECHENG!

18 YEARS OLD ALREADY!

LAST LONG LONG WITH CHEESE! ((:

For myself, i really learned alot of things from my classmates, friends and family.
I find that its better for us to experience ourselves than being told.
The more you experience something, the more you'll get as reward.

2010-07-29T22:13:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i dont know why but you are always in my heart

There are alot alot alot of things i wished to tell you when i see you

The time when you hold on to my hand tight and walked with me, I REMEMBERED

Whenever i give you attitude, you always force to make me feeling better?! ((:

The day you left me and go, i know i will feel weird

It is because i know you will never be back with me

You wont bring me to any places that you brought me to

For so many years, you are always there for me

By taking care of me when im sick, playing badminton with me, cook for me

There are many things that i wanted to say to you now but you will never let me to..

It is because i can never dream of you

I wish to say everything that i wanted to say before you left.

I must admit all the mistakes and also to..

Say, i love you!

To you: there are alot of words to tell you.
But i must admit to you too..
I really love you and miss you very much.
Nights, i will put you in the history again.
Thanks for letting me having those memories.
And letting me fall in love with you twice.
Cause i will never regret. ((:
All the best. (:

2010-07-23T23:04:00.002+08:00

Simple but Complicated.

Notice that i am changing and changing.
Just to suit with the environment i am adapting to.
Its HORRIBLE, SHITTY?!
But i guess this is the reality isnt it?!
Everything can be simple but also difficult.
WHY DIFFICULT?!
Cause what you see is simple, but the things that the people do are difficult for you to believe.
Act in front of me when the person didnt do anything and yet did that kind of thing. )):

Alright, nothing much today.
After school, lyn and me to author the shirt and homed!

On the way back home,
I choose the way we used to walk.
All the images and pictures of you smiling.
The times you follow behind me steps by steps.
Nothing can replace that memories.
All the best for anything you met.

2010-07-07T00:41:00.003+08:00

LESSON : NO PAIN NO LOSS NO GAIN.

My leg is so pain! )):
I swear! it hurts..

Today's lesson i find it sounds right.

No pain, no loss no pain.

That is realistic.

I am tired and exhausted. ):

Dont tell me you love me when you are unsure.

Dont tell me lies that i dont even want to hear.

You know what i want, but you didnt say anything.

We lose a chance and i dont know.

I dont understand what is love now.

I love you, but i love you more.(eclipse)

How is it possible for us?

I have the courage now but its too late i guess?

MAKE a guess alright?!

Make me trust you can?

2010-06-29T15:30:00.003+08:00

HEYHEYHEY!

28th june!

Its is me and my HUSBAND'S anniversary!
Love you to the max!
You are always there with me when i needed someone to be there.
You always know what am i thinking.
You are always there whenever i am talking nonesense.
I always do alot of stupid stuffs HOWEVER you will always forgive and laugh!
And even though most of the time i made you very angry till you want to smack me,
you will still never leave me alone and be right there. You see me laugh and you laugh!
Haha! cause you find it very stupid right.
You are always that good. That makes me love you too much!
Thanks for enduring my stupidness, gong-ness! Thanks la!
Last long long okay?! ((: 18th anniversary already! ((:

As for 29th june,

It is me and MY BOYFRIEND ANNIVERSARY!
Sorry did not celebrate with you!
But hope you dont mind! ! month anniversary! ((:

2010-06-13T14:31:00.002+08:00

What happen?! - Nothing?!

Went to lots of places with my girls.
No pictures, Nothing.
But you can take a look at LJ,LYN,VAN's blog.
I am damn lazy to put it up.

We went to places like we didnt go before.
EXCEPT - cck cc's badminton court.
Have lots of fun all those..
CRAPS CRAPS CRAPS.

And went to pub for drinking after that.
Overall not bad.
I think i am addicted to martell.
But heck cares! Love it! ((:

Speechless.
I dont know what happen to me.
But i am really sorry.
I am okay. No worries.
Just lack of alcohol that's all.

To : Thanks for knowing me so well.
You know who i am saying to.
Well, BE HONOURED.

I miss you > 2+3 !
When i drink, i miss you > 3!
When i dont drink, i miss you >2!

2010-06-10T16:57:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry!

I'm sorry to vanessa and lijuan! )):
Super super sorry.
I really sleep die die le. )):

Didnt hear my house phone and get up for work.
And did not answer my phone.
But i have never sleep so soundly.
This proves that ALCOHOL IS GOOD! ((:

Cause the day before, me, lyn, my sister's bf and yawhui go drinking!
Ha! overall still okay.
But we go to PARTY WORLD and thai disco.
All the pictures are in CHERYLYN's blog.
GO there and view the pictures okay?
I am very lazy to post it here!

Watching my favourite show for this month now.
Ghost whisperer. Melinda Gordon!

Im wondering.
I miss my instrument. )):

2010-06-05T12:55:00.004+08:00

Back from WEDDING DINNER!

Every bride is the prettiest on their important day.
I didnt bring back the photos.
Cause i am far away from the stage.

Random photos after the dinner. ((:

2010-06-01T16:39:00.003+08:00

Maybe what they say is true. There are those people you encounter in life whom you never really get over. Even if you meet others who treat you better or love you more, there is always that person you cant quite completely forget at the back of your mind. - runawaytrain.

I actually come across these sentences from wei wei's wall in facebook.

Find it meaningful.

Maybe sometimes people is just so hard to forget.

Or someone that you really love alot and you cant manage to treat those things as nothing.

Put all the pieces together, and make a picture of it and frame it there.

And kept in the somewhere you dont want to reach for.

Leave it there, for thousands years,dig it out, you still feel everything was once there.

Even if its old, rusty but still it had been there in reality before.

Everyone is looking for something that last forever.

What's that? Its just a fairytale.

Come on, dont be too serious for that ! ((:

Nothing last forever and ever.

Not all endings are good.

Hope everything is simple like "ABC".

2010-05-26T23:35:00.002+08:00

DEMORALISED(3)

Falling apart.
Speechless and speechless.
Thats all bring back my alcohol.

p.s : i really dont feel good. I am sorry.

2010-05-24T19:23:00.009+08:00

DEMORALISED(2)

All these photos took when i am bored!
Studying really sucks!
I missed my alcohols! ((:

Kinda don't know what to do.

HA! BENGJIE JIE JIE~~!

IGNORE ME! SAD! )):

I missing you baby! Alcohol cures you!

2010-05-24T01:15:00.004+08:00

DEMORALISED.

Don't understand why.
I just feel extremely tired nowadays.
I missed all the interesting part of my life.
Find it hard to understand and dont know the reasons for that.
And not knowing how to replenish that "BIG HOLE".
Everyday feel like pon-ed school.
Everyday see different things, met different things.
Problem solving, problem statement, programming codes, mathematics.
What kind of life is that?
I wondered how am i supposed to cope with this kind of situation.
Forcing a bloody fucking smile.

Sometimes i really missed all the aunties in my work place.
Whenever i went back, i feel like crying.
I dont know why. Maybe missed them badly or perhaps just want to work at there.
I thought i will be able to use to this kind of life.
Everything is not what i thought.
I wished i could do everything best.
Put in more efforts and what it comes out was otherwise.
I find it difficult to cope.

I thought i can be the one you wanted me to become.
I am wrong. I am tired and speechless.
I am too tired now babe. Really.

You taught me alot of things.
How to love, forgive, cry, stop crying, miss, lose, independent.
BUT, You never teach me how to forget.
Just miss everything. My friends, love, family.

Drink because of you, Stopped because of you.
Pierce because of you, Tired because of you.
Missed because of you, Wondered because of you.
Failed because of you, Smile because of you....

2010-05-18T19:17:00.004+08:00

Okay, i am back!
Brought back some photos!
Hope you guys will like it! ((:
I dont have the photos with lyn!
But you can go and check out at juan blog! ((:

The photos are with my class mates! All these pictures
with my friends are took when we are having our maths
lesson! We are crazy with maths and started snapping PHOTOS!

That is my maths faci. PURPOSELY TAKE HIS PICTURE!

2010-04-21T21:37:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL STARTS.

Okay, i still not used to my school yet.
Not really feel good.
I get sick so easily also.
But was happy that i get two days mc!

Alot of things run through my mind.
Thinking alot of things when i am watching my show.
Find it that, we really have alot of regrets when we leave.

One song that i love alot now.
This song is for you. ((:
Hope you feels better now.

2010-03-28T00:37:00.002+08:00

Its our anniversary~~!!

DARLING, LOVE YOU LA.
DONT EVER ABANDON ME HOR.. HEHES.
I MEAN IT!! haha..

Meeting soon ya?
And, thanks for being there for me okay?

2010-03-06T03:44:00.002+08:00

Don't be plastic - Maryanne.

Find these words familliar.
Anyway, i want to apologize here if i am causing lots of troubles.
I guess i will not force anyone to come along.
I know you guys have difficulties.

I am really okay with it.
Its not like it is really important anyway. ((:
So, dont mind me saying this.

Alright, apart from that..
I guess i have to apologize to quite a numbers people.

1. Wen cong. Just wanted to say really sorry.
I am sorry to make you feel that i am unfriendly towards you or what.
Its just that i do not know what topic to pick up to communicate with you.
Even though we know each other for quite long but i really do not know how to say it.

For the rest, i cannot say here..
But i still wanted to say SORRY.

Okay, for my personal journal now.
I spent all my days working and with my friends.
Even though working makes me tired but i learnt number of things there.
All the people trained me so well.
They are friendly, kind and also good mothers.
They dote me, cheer me up, make me laugh and talk to me.

I wanted to learn to sing some of the songs that are challenging to me.
Cause i love the songs so much.
Ha! Even if i am gonna have wrong pitching, i will still sing.

Lastly, my dear, dont think too much alright.
Love you la~~
No worries, i will be by your side. ((:

2010-02-14T18:33:00.003+08:00

Wondering.

My manager said something like..
"Let him go as well as letting yourself go? Why are you waiting for?"
Many songs she snag to me to change my thinking. haha!
She is nice! ((:

Wondering will you be there for me for today.
But i guess it will be a little bit too difficult right?
Cause if you are not mine, you will never come to me.
Sometimes, we just cant force it to come to you right?
Even though i dont know why i really wish that you will meet with me..
Hoping you will be there. ((:
Hope you can sealed your promises with the last kiss. hais.

what if.. ((: It's impossible right?

2010-02-02T02:09:00.003+08:00

I am happy!

I am happy but i dont know what is the reason behind it.
I guess its because of those words. ((:
I am so tired but still couldn't sleep.

Honey, when are we going to ride the cable car? )):
When is the construction finish.. )):
Hahaa... wondering who can i ask to spend with me for my valentine's day.
Will it be you?
I will treat you if its only you. ((:

Good the bye!! ((:
Nights everyone.

2010-01-27T23:20:00.004+08:00

It has been so long... TO POST!

Okay, first and foremost, thanks everyone that worries about me so much.
I know what i am doing now.
Reading the post juan wrote..
I know what am i going to do now.
I know what i should do..
Is to letting go of myself.

I must thanks for people that gave me a wonderful memories.
I will keep that and save it in my database. ((:
Nothing is going to stop me to make me happy now.
No restricts no worries and just wanted to be myself.
The one that i used to be without having so many problems.

But as for now, i only want to love my friends and my DARLING!
Tml is our anniversary. 32mintues to go!
Hope the construction for that bloody machine faster finish.
Then i can go there for my first time!!
I realised that if i didnt have my friends, my laughters are all fake!!
I am enjoying myself now. Ha!
They really make me laugh like hell lots!
I love you girls! ((:

And yeah~~ berlin,jovin and me will having a singing session tml soon.
Hope it will sound at least not bad. hahaha..!!

New songs updated, hope you like it. ((:

I will still miss all the memories.
Cause i know, after you had injured yourself..
Scars will left there forever.
However, these scars will never affect me anymore.
At least start from now.
I dont care what you are thinking or what..
If you know who i am talking about then just keep it to yourself.
I will never contact you anymore, since, you want to erase it.
Goodbye, i will go back to the one you first met me.
However, for this time, i wont bring all the past back to my usual self.
Thank you. Thanks for loving me, if you really did last time. ((:

2010-01-18T21:36:00.002+08:00

I'm missing you so much.

Go to class chalet for the past 3 days.
Having a great fun over there.
We went to places like haunted housse?
The old sports school and was alright.
This make me remembering the times with you.
You would hold my hand so tight like i will disappear like that.
All the things are like recalling the period of time that i spend with you.
hehs. alright, by the way i dont have any pictures.
And i believe you know where to see pictures, right?
YES~!! BERLIN'S BLOG.
Btw, we girls are laughing like shit on our way back home.
Laugh until i knock the cab's door for 3 times.
Haha.. was really funny la fuck!!
I cannot stop laughing.
We are really power power power. ((:

Outing with my girls friend again!
To wild wild wet!! OMG!
I love it i ove it i love t.

Alright, new songs again. ((:
It's from F.I.R .

向日葵盛开的夏天

樱花飘过了秋天你我分开的季节
眼泪疼了无法表达
反复在我心深处的挣扎
伞为你开却被你收

踏在青色柏油路忘记走习惯的路

害怕了吗想念你啊

夏天的向日葵不说心事

伤感的字乱了理智无法掩饰

感谢你陪伴我走过了每一步

花终究会凋落没办法再呵护

这真的是一段很难熬的路

触碰感情深处我才读懂幸福

经过一阵雷雨太阳依旧灿烂

雨后的向日葵会安静的陪伴

你说过每一句会好好记住

在陌生的未来我会更勇敢

感谢你陪伴我走过了每一步
花终究会凋落没办法再呵护
你说过每一句我会好好记住
在陌生的未来我会更勇敢

I really really miss you.
I dont know what to say now.
Every moment counts.
All the memories will never forget.
But when i think of the things, i know we are no longer for real.
But i really wish that you are there.

2010-01-15T16:09:00.002+08:00

I just need more courage now.
Will be back after ritual~
Anyone volunteer to come and accompany overnight?
Give me a call alright?
Please.... ((:
Love you very much.

2010-01-10T01:36:00.002+08:00

Not in mood. Doubt no one believes me.

My mood was not really good from the morning till my dinnner break.
It wasn't me at the period of time.
Too tired to force myself doing things that i dont like.
A bit too harsh or attitude somehow.

But overall still not too bad.
I really hope so.
I dont want to talk about results.

So, today was asked to stay till 11 pm at my work place.
A bit unlucky.
But i dont have a choice you know?
My boss wants me to stay.
Therefore, i have to go home by the bus 188.

All my friends trying to make me smile, but ABIT fail.
But i still love you all okay!!
Btw, i keep on eat and drink those sweet things also no use.
So fail~~~~!!!!!
But at least i still hear one song that make me happy.
The song i previously introduce one. Ha!

Alright, i want to sleep already.
Goodnight and that care.

I miss you really much.
When i need a shoulder, will you be just by my side?
I am so exhausted nowadays.
Its hard to smile.
Can i call you?
I cannot take it already.

2010-01-07T01:29:00.003+08:00

Singing Session with Jovin and Berlin~

Have a good day for today.
But i think i am getting sick soon!
Having light fever and headache plus swollen eyes. DIE!! )):
Its a good day for me to release my unhappiness. ((:
We sang quite alot of songs that we didnt really sing before.
Ha.. But was quite well right, ber & vin?
AM I RIGHT, GIRLS?
Have alot of laughters all the way~
Love it.
Alright, i should get some new songs for my blog already.
Introduce one song that make my day everytime when im not okay.
hope you guys will like it!!
It is of course CHINESE SONG!
I dont know whether you will get it.
But this song really cheer me up most of the time. ((:
Even when i miss you.

7天追到你

1234567遇见你在星期一
算一算就快过一星期
7654321每一天一个惊喜
我要在第7天追到你

不管你喜欢玫瑰茉莉还是满天星
九百九十九朵每天送到你手心
1234567
每天为你做一片爱心巧克力

甜到你心底
来不及来不及算命
我们注定要在一起
了不起了不起看看

我一见钟情的魔力
135溶化你246甜死你
第7天就追到你
来不及来不及抗拒

我已深深的爱上你
了不起了不起感动到你
也不得不领情
7天说7百句我爱你

等你说你也愿意
等你说你也(我愿意)

Alright, for the day before i am so angry and upset.
But i guess will be just alright right?
Alot of things are not like what we see and hear.
Sometimes, you are unable to judge that it was right or wrong.
However, i guess this is what human beings like?
When we said something that are hard to believe, no one believes you.
Get upset and cried like a baby.
For my thinking last time, i will think that it is okay to do that.
But thinking further, i guess, it will be some sort of wasting time.
It is a good way to release your anger or sadness.
I do agree!
But ever thought of the things you have to face for the future?
If you stop there whenever you are sad?
How many times you gonna stop and stare blankly?
You can stop for a few times but not everytime.
I may not know what my future would be like.
But at least i am trying so hard just to move on and move on.

2009-12-29T00:47:00.003+08:00

28th december. Our anniversary.

After working finsh, we go watch movie and go walk walk..
Hmmm.. overall HAPPY.
But just that someone is just TOO tired le..
Fall asleep while we took the bus back.
Actually i understand why la. >.<
After we reached panjang we decide to walk home from there.
We did chat number of things.
Even though it is a simple day and plan..
But i did enjoy it. ((:

Alright, Shin says that alot of people dote me at my working places.
HA! maybe cause i am always clumsy that is also why i can get to know more people which always and teach me.
Actually i did learn alot of this along the way.
All the aunties are too good to me.
We were all enjoying rather than stress when our boss having OFF.
It will be our happiest day when Our Boss. Ha!
My hands were all full with injuries.
Cuts, bruises, nails broken and so on.
It hurts alright, but still have to tolerate. ((:
Having this working experience for me was a good one.
Independence, Happy, and also met alot of cute guys and friends.
Without all of them i will never turn mysef back to the route.. >.<
And this makes me remember that it has been so long since i talk to my mum.
Miss the time she scolded me and times that we spent together.

Basic routine for myself is work, sleep,watch show and nothing else.
I want to enjoy myself but i find it hard.
Try to push everything so packed just to reduce the percentage of missing you.
But sometimes i enjoyed.
At least i tried my very very best right.

Okay, for apologise that i didnt post for this few weeks..
I will change a new songs to share with you.
Hmm.. Is from Landy.
This song is saying how i feeling now.

刺猬

最后一抹的微笑在转身之后
我闭上眼哭了
仅存的一点点骄傲
华丽的外表终於丢掉
很旁徨很孤单是寂寞或悲惨
一个人该怎么办

像是刺猬般防范伪装得勇敢

不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上一片无声黑暗
心痛得大声呼喊

我想我没那么坚强
每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强

不过是一而再的逞强

小心将情绪收藏比傻瓜还傻

刺猬的坚强全都是假象..哭吧
刺猬的坚强全都是假象

hope you guys will like it.
I will upload other songs as soon as possible. >.<

I thought that all the things you said will never affects me.
But what i guess and thought was just too wrong.
What am i going to do?
Baby, i really miss you very much.

2009-12-16T17:14:00.002+08:00

Songs introduce to you

I had been listening to this song since yesterday.
This song was the last song for that day and really made me feel different.
Maybe it was touching somehow.
I dont know but really not bad.
Closed your eyes and listen to this song.
Word by word and here comes drops of water. >.<"

Meaningful i guess.

Alright, i still have another song by angela zhang.
I will put the lyrics at the bottom.
Hope you guys will also like it.
Songs are already added and updated in my mixpod. ((:

Lyrics for 可不可以爱我

为什麽如此的安静
为什麽明明想靠近却还在迟疑
努力的我保持镇定努力开拓话题
最後却溃不成军

＊为什麽如此的美丽
深刻的烙在心里最温柔的酷刑
每一天无法不想你
连闭上眼睛怎麽都是你

你可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落

你可不可以爱我可不可以看我
反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德
拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我
快乐还是寂寞＊

Repeat ＊

想念燃烧个不停
我快置身灰烬
你是我的呼吸

你可不可以爱我可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过
告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落

你可不可以爱我
可不可以看我
反正看或不看
我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德
拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我能给我什麽
快乐还是寂寞

Lyrics for angela - 偶爾

我們都曾經失去愛情　
從你的身上　我認識刻骨銘心　
錯過的花季　我的心也糾結成冰　
我們都曾經非常努力　卻常常的嘆息　
常常有了疑問句　所以我離去

偶爾很清醒　偶爾卻抗拒
偶爾有睡意　偶爾很傷心
當我們反覆練習
想讓愛歸零　但無能為力

偶爾很開心　偶爾卻下雨
偶爾有夢境　偶爾很想你
當我們同時安靜
也做了決定　卻不要再見你

我們都曾經失去愛情　
從你的身上　我認識刻骨銘心　
錯過的花季　我的心也糾結成冰　
我們都曾經非常努力　卻常常的嘆息　
常常有了疑問句　所以我離去

偶爾很清醒　偶爾卻抗拒
偶爾有睡意　偶爾很傷心
當我們反覆練習
想讓愛歸零　但無能為力

偶爾很開心　偶爾卻下雨
偶爾有夢境　偶爾很想你
當我們同時安靜
也做了決定　卻不要再見你

偶爾很清醒　偶爾卻抗拒
偶爾有睡意　偶爾很傷心
當我們反覆練習
想讓愛歸零　但無能為力

偶爾很開心　偶爾卻下雨
偶爾有夢境　偶爾很想你
當我們同時安靜
也做了決定　卻不要再見你

2009-12-15T01:24:00.003+08:00

I am feeling tired

Has been working for few weeks.
Knowing some freinds out there.
Also one of the bicycle promoters.

I remember he bring me to the "sea side" as what he say.
Alright, not very fun and see him smoking over there.
However, i feel a bit relax ba.
It has been so long that someone actually bring me to a place where i can slow down my pace and rest awhile.
Therefore, i must really thank him for that.

He said one sentence to me by sms which i remember ben and you told me.
So, it was like a familiar feeling. ha!!
Btw, his name is shin. >.<>.<

Outing with berlin, jovin tml~~
Singing Singing Singing. ((:
I hope i will love tomorrow.
It has been soooooooo long that i see them again. hais.

During the different journey to my work place was like so awesome.
When i am late for work which is same days as the illusion guy. ((:
I realised alot of things slong the way and how are we going to cope it.
Everything are not seen clearly if we increase our walking pace to a destination.
We would missed alot of good things along the way.
Its the process that matters.

Therefore, memories should be kept in a place where people cant reach for it. ((:
I guess i am crazy now.
I am crazy with songs that related to Rachel Liang~~!
Bye bye. Nights.

I am thinking of you.
I miss you babe.

2009-12-12T01:50:00.002+08:00

ENDLESS WORKING

Okay, i met few more friends of his today.
Actually was quite fun but of course tiring.
Didnt talk to the aunties and friends really much.
Cause we have a lot of things to do and also to avoid..
OUR MANAGER >.<

Actually, i think that he is really a good guy?
Haha.. cause he "scolded" us which i dont think is one.
How gentle he is you know?
Maybe because all of them are all adults.

Was actually feeling happy to know them as well. ((
I thought that it was hard to cope but still manage to cope a bit i guess.
Alright, i missing you girls really that much.
Hope we can still talk as much when we meet each other alright.

Thinking of the war tomorrow make me faint.
I must fight for and win the war.. haha!!
It will be a long day for me but it should be okay.
Wondering what can i eat tomorrow...
But i guess i just cant finish my food somehow..
Only for this MONTH!
OMG!!!! Cannot like this~!
But also good? hehes..
ALright i have to go to sleep unless i cant wake up.
A song for all of us here..
Do go and check out okay?
Nevermind, i will put the lyrics and song as fast as possible.
Nights.

Missing you bit by bit.
Nothing is gonna be back.
Let it go?
I tried so fucking hard just to make myself tired and sleep.
I miss you baby. ((:
I dropped the things you gave me.
However, i am able to get it back.
Why? Tell me a reason?
Also tell me another reason for me to hate you. ((:

2009-12-02T00:42:00.003+08:00

Keep going on.. WORKING.

I have been trying very hard at my work place.
Know more new and interesting things along the way.
Get to know more friends and most importantly to be independent as well as growing up.
I remember benjamin told me to stand up and faced everything that comes in contact with us.
I also working hard to the goal which is to make myself a better one.
I want to lead a new life.
A life without someone Standing beside me and guide me through.
mI don't want to become a burden of someone.
Neither do i want people to worry for me when i didn't eat my lunch.

I hope that i had grow up through these things that came in to my life without giving a warning.
I told myself i will get through it without any help and i did it.
I had my friends to help me all along without abandoning me halfway.
And i really loved them really much! ((:

2009.
There are alot things that actually happened which i have to face it one by one.
Friends and family come along to change my life.
Maybe this post is another sad and emotion one, but i only know how to write this..
I hope someone will remember this thing.
"You making me happy, sad, exhausted,waiting for you" ---> which i never ever regret.
I find it hard to hate you at all.
It is because the most simple reason that i can't say.
Remember the white chocolate?
You bought it just for me.
Simple things that making me happy.
I will never ever forget the happy moments.
If you are tired of yourself, don't forget i am a friend of yours too.
The friend that you said, "i trust you the most."

The song i like..

若非这一场雨
有些事再也不会想起
你怀里那片温暖的遮蔽
如今剩一把伞温热我手心
学你的语气
连道别都如此的温馨
两个字比眼泪还断续
是否表示你也不忍分离
回忆是冰封在眼睛的雨
藏着多幸福的事情
回不去是你
任谁也换不了的过去
爱情是凝结在脸颊的雨
像水晶总会融去
才那么美丽
感谢那个雨季
身旁的人是你
时间是冻结在玄关的雨
模糊你离去的脚印
至少那涟漪
证明我们曾走在一起
你是那飘落在昨天的雨
在心里留下回忆
却遥不可及
仿佛那一个梦里哦
还躲在离散地

Even how hard it is to get over it, i will do it.
I get a bit numb of myself.
Nothing actually can hurt me.
I don't know what is happy, sad.
I don't want to kill myself with all these right?
Ha! I'll be alright after crying because love is always there.
It is a combination of Rachel Liang's song.
I love her voice. ((:
No more. Believe me. I will take it all away.

2009-11-27T01:38:00.003+08:00

Was working.

Ha! alright, today is a quite boring, funny day.
My manager, Denesh actually caught me yawning when i am folding clothes.
Ha! got said by him and say that i am folding too slow.
Actually i want to say something to him.
Seriously, i am not that sleepy.
I ask you all okay..

If let say you are listening to 3 songs playing for the whole of 8 hours on the 3 days..
Will you get bored or tired?
Playing for 3 days, same songs still never mind.
The biggest problem is the song is like so.. OMG.
Which is a lullaby for me.
Im seriously trying not to be tired but still not my fault right. ha!

Okay, i go dinner with my part timer, Nasir.
I've forgotten all his personal information.. ha!
But basically, he is also in the same softline section as me. ((:
I dont know what to post already.
I will try to come back with the things on my working days okay?
Oh ya, the aunties there treat me very very very good. ha!
Therefore, quite happy and enjoying over there.
Learn a lot of things from them for example, cheating! ((:
Also learn things like independence and also how i can make new friends.
Alright, i will end here.
Just wanted to post something over here before i sleep.

When i heard that song, i thought that i have fall for you.((:
I dont know whether you get it.
But never mind, used to it already.
Some phrase that i have heard from and i feel that it is quite true.
"If i didnt say that i am hurt, doesnt mean i am not hurt at all"

2009-11-26T00:31:00.003+08:00

Working.

I learn some things from the people at my working place.
And also, i know some friends as well.
Overall, tired but still quite fun i guess. ((:
Alright i will end here.
Dont want to post anymore.
Hope i can take picture with my new friends and upload alright.((:
Nights. Goodbye.

I thought that i could forget you using the time to focus on work.
However, i was wrong. Very wrong.
Because i use the time when i am sleeping to miss you to remember you.
I cant sleep for these few days.
Keep having aching around my shoulder and neck.
Also, kept on waking up in the middle of the night.
I am really too tired.
How about you?
I wanted to ask you alot of things but i choose to remain silent.
For examples, how are you, what are you doing,where are you..
But i guess it is no longer that important right?
Im tired. Hope i can sleep today.
Nights. Take care. All the best. No more.

2009-11-20T23:35:00.003+08:00

NEW SONG UPDATED.

Hope you guys will like this korean song.
Another meaning song to me, i guess.
Just like this song.

Nothing much, dont feel like writing anything down.
Alright, i miss you out of the sudden.
Never thought i will miss you when im lying on the bed.
I remember every action that day.
Those actions are just bringing me back.
However, i dont want to anymore, no more.
You are going to be with her therefore i should stop it.
Bye bye. Nights.

2009-11-18T22:02:00.002+08:00

No title, Nothing.

Completely disappointed in myself.
I guess i still have not decide what am i going to do.
I dont know why i have a sudden stubbornness these days.
Just not myself i guess.
Changes in me are good or bad, negative or positive?
I dont know.
Even my friend is so disappointed and tired of telling me things now.
What to do?
I am making you so disappointed, tired and whatever.

I aboard bus 307 and go around the places.
Just to see how much changes and things that happened.
I wondered who am i with these changes and things.
I doubt myself and trying to overcome the things that i recalled.
Incredible? Horrible? Terrible?
Things i did not want to recall and remember are back.
With the one hour trip, really make me think awhile.
Of course it did appears around my eyes but did not drop it.
Cause i hold it there.
I did not feel any better even with this trip.
Okay, nevermind, after that was too tired.
Homed and sleep with the memories. ((:
Both of you are in the memories.
Bye, got to make me sleep now. Nights.

2009-11-10T23:55:00.002+08:00

It wasn't the same anymore right?

Am i right to say that?
I don't know what to say now.
It just came to me and i am speechless.
Really speechless.
Everything isn't the same
Is it really true?
I don't know. No longer know it. ((:
You blind my eyes.

You are right.
I am not myself ever again.
But what can i do, really?
I don't even remember it.
I am no longer her anymore.

2009-11-07T21:13:00.003+08:00

Slimming center, here i come!

Have been enjoying myself lately.
I am going to play like hell.
But i guess i dont get good grades for my studies.
I miss my girls so much.
I guess i have to go to a slimming center!
I am turning really fat as a fast rate.

I miss you out of sudden.
Miss the time with you, him and me going taking lrt.
I fallen asleep, you put my head on your shoulder.
Still sweet okay? ((:
Never mind forget about it.

2009-11-06T00:36:00.000+08:00

Cry On My Shoulder lyrics

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home
You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's a destiny
The best things in life
They're free

Chorus:

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide

Repeat chorus

What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do

2009-11-06T00:20:00.002+08:00

Seems to keep crossing your mind has performed
the emotional work necessary
to let go and move on,
and this may be the moment that you have been waiting for.

This make me think for a second or so.
Is it true?
I dont know. Really.
Yet you asked me again.
Is it just like this and ends without utter any words.

2009-11-04T23:00:00.003+08:00

I miss you.

I dont know why, but just miss you.
I miss the time you ask me bathe,eat,sleep,dont watch tv.
And even tell me not to cry when you saw me crying at a side.
You told me not to cry cause it doesnt worth it.
Dont treat it that serious.
Even when you are not feeling well, you make breakfast for me.
You even did dote me the most.
still remember the time you take care of me when i am sick.
Do you know how important are you?
I confirmed that after everything is over.
I have took all your advice and kept it to myself.
You would always want me to take care of myself.
You worried for me so much.
When both of us quarreled you will always stopped first and not arguing with me.
Thanks for everything. I really miss you very much.
Something i did not say when you left me.
The words is " I love you " .

2009-11-02T18:46:00.003+08:00

Miss you even more when it gets to raining day.

Bye Bye. ((: I'm so sick.

By the way, thanks for letting me know what is behind the mask.
You made me feel that all the efforts i did, to make you feel better did not paid off at all.
However, i guess i am very fucking wrong.
Sorry to say vulgarities in this blog.
However, what i know is that you are always a fucking liar that fucking make me pissed off.
Well, thanks for you acting in front of me.
Or else i will never ever know how good is your acting towards me and so on.
What a good self choreography this episode.
Hence, i will act or even just shoot at your fucking face.
I love you, cause you will know what you are going to fucking get from me.

2009-10-30T20:56:00.002+08:00

Im jealous but i dont know why. ((:

Thanks for everything unknown.
You made me cry when i saw the things you wrote for me.
Thanks for giving so many advices and nagging.
i appreciate a lot.
It is because i know that you are always there for me like the one you mention in your blog.
I am glad to have you as a friend. ha!
I really wished to be that girl you used to be with.
However, everything is just not that simple as what we think.
I dont know how long can i be like this.
But i promised to try everything to my best.
Therefore, dont worry for me that much.
Because i will also worry for you very very much.
Really glad to see you rush down to look for me that day.
And tried to do all your things that fast and look for me.
Really really thanks thanks thanks thanks!!
You make me feel better each time.
And tried your best to hold on my tears.
What i can say is, im not that brave yet.
Cause i haven recover to who you know.
Im changing you know?
Changes to someone you never want to know her at all.
Must always prepared your cap for me alright?
Cause i will look for you out of no where.
Dont lie to me okay?
Must kept all your promises okay?
Trust me. bring your cap alright?

Baby, are you there?
Must be true in front of me okay?
I love you la. Really.
Lastly, i am tired without you.

2009-10-28T18:44:00.002+08:00

I'ts our 10th month Anniversary again! BUT..

Okay, i love you dear.
You treat me better each time nowadays.
And i am glad, you know. hehes. ((:
Study hard okay? Promise me alright?
Dont ever give up.

Who are you, unknown?
What is so difficult to tell me who are you?
When did i love you?
It is those drama show that having the same scenario?
For example, roseate love or whatever?
Then i guess you should stop watching those.
Thanks for encouraging me.
And i appreciate it really much. Thanks alot.

2009-10-24T23:15:00.003+08:00

I love you but you love another person.

Thanks for everything.
Its gonna be over soon.

I had a great fun with my friends.
Study and study.
Also we have a lot of jokes along the way.

2009-10-16T23:38:00.002+08:00

Hush Hush Lyrics

Oooooh ooooh
I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointin' out my wrongs
i never needed pain,i never needed strenght
My love for you was strong enough you should've known.
I never needed you for judgement
I never needed you to question what i spent
I never ask for help, I take care of myself, I don't know why you think you got a hold on me.
And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything that you can do.
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so look at me , listen to me because,

I don't want to
Stay another minute
I don't want you
To say a single word
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
There is no other way
I get the final say
Because
I don't want to
Do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby Hush Hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how i act to what i say
i never needed words, i never needed hurt, i never needed you to be there everyday
I'm sorry for the way i let go
Of everything i wanted when you came along
But i am never beaten, broken, not defeated
I know next to you is not where i belong
And it's a little late for explanations
There isn't anything that you can do
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so you will listen when i say baby

I don't want to
Stay another minute
I don't want you
To say a single word
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
There is no other way
I get the final say
Because
I don't want to
Do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby Hush Hush

No more words
No more lies
No more crying ooh ooh
No more pain
No more hurt
No more tryin' Oh Oh Yeah
Because

I don't want to
Stay another minute
I don't want you
To say a single word
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
There is no other way
I get the final say
Because
I don't want to
Do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby Hush Hush

Yeah Oh
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby

~~~~~~~~~~~END~~~~~~~~~

Its just rolls down my cheek when i heard this song "hush hush"playing over and over again.
i dont know why.
We are just like the things that this lyrics referring to.
Do you know that?
Everything is just opposite we are thinking.
Can we get back the old selves.
Will it ends?
I thought you would know me and chat with me.
I guess you have your own problems to solve too.
I wont cry without you okay?
Im still controlling.
Help me when you get back to singapore.
By the way, dont sad sad la. ((:
I knew you are never that strong. ha~!

Baby,i miss you,
Somehow,im sorry.

2009-10-11T11:51:00.003+08:00

HAPPY. MEMORIES.

Talking with him for the past few days.
And everything we talk about it was like yesterday.
All the regrets, sad, happy moments played over and over again like a video.

The pain i suffered last time, comes back again.
And it is because the efforts we put in didnt paid off.
And also, we should not go back to the past.

Alright we started off with hi and memories.
Thinking of that period and after reading the blog, i cried.
But because i missed that HURT somehow i dont get it with my current.
Also miss the time quarreling all those.
And those times i have spend with Qihan overnight at the place we ever go.
So, pretty clear and needs to put it on a frame right?
Hope esther and you last long long okay? ha!
And better treat her better than me or i will kill you for her.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~END~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Darling lost the ring.
Ha, but we gonna buy one to replace it right?
When we should buy it? hehes.

I miss you, really much.
Dont know why, just missing you.
Im sorry. Trust me.

2009-10-04T00:23:00.004+08:00

DISAPPOINTED. TIRED. HAPPY.

Happy with all kinds of thing i decided the day before.
I will never regret remember? Ha!
Alright i have to write an "apology letter" cause i feel bad about it.

Apology Letter to M**.

To my dear M** :

You are always the one in my heart.
Without you, i believe that i wasn't able to walk this far where i could see my future.
All the encourages you gave me are really GREAT and i mean it.
It is because other than someone else, you are always there for me.
I did know how much it hurts when i break your heart over and over again.
I cannot swear that i will never ever break your heart again.
However, i can promise that i will tried to do my best.
Everything i did always make you sad and angry, no matter what.
However, till today, when i see you giving me that look.
It breaks my heart without any reason, i don't know why.
Whenever i said i found another boy, you always asked lots of question.
And even asked me to take care of myself.
I did take care of myself alright.
Also, whenever i said something that i really don't wished to say,you'll stop asking.
I am really really sorry for not chatting with you for quite long.
Don't feel lonely okay?
It is because i know there are someone be there for you.
I guess i already did something that hurt you again .
I know this should be a apology letter.
However, i don't know why i am writing out an essay instead.
I am SORRY, SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY..
Hope you can see this or sense this in your dreams without knowing what i am writing here.
Not only that, i must tell you something else.
I really do MISS those time we spending our time chatting.
Hope everything would be fine for all of us.

~~~~~~~~~~END~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

TO you :

I think you sense it too right?
Only you know what is going on and hinting me something. Ha!
I am really happy that we are turning a bit way back to normal.
Lets put our efforts on studies now okay? (:
Also thanks for the day you went to my dad's.. ^^
I Love You. Muacks. ((:

TO Darling:

I dont think i sense any pain.
I dont know why but maybe i should know that earlier.
I am really really wished that you will be happy.
And sorry to take your... away.^^
You should know it. Im sorry. ):
But not totally my fault right?
Of course dont forget it to use on her okay?
( If got chance then.. ((: )

2009-10-01T16:08:00.002+08:00

You are no longer there. ):

Finally i have pictures UPLOADED.
But i have only 4 picture here.
Wait patiently for the photos then. (:

Kenny (Small English Tutor caught sleeping over there) TAKE 1.

TAKE 2! How could you do this. (:

Okay, I DID STUDY ALRIGHT. BELIEVE ME. ((:

Typing this just because imy. (:

Okay i will start my day today then.
Didnt do much things and just that waiting for someone to REPLY.
And what proves to me is that.. YOU DIDNT.
I will give up then.
Since you wont reply then forget it okay?
I dont know whether i will regret or not.
But just will make me so disappointed afterall.

Having mock exams everyday kills me.
However i love it someway somehow.
At least i will start taking out books from my bag!
And not tidbits, sweets,jacket out from my bag.
Alright, i have to study my chemistry later on.
And YEAH! its friday tml.
HOWEVER HOWEVER, means that i have lesser time to prepare for my O' lvls.
I didnt have much time to SLEEP.
But i did sleep like pig for this few days. Ha!
And i dream of you the week before. ^^

~~~~~~~~~~~~End~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I dont feel good.
I miss the old self of you badly.
I dont know why we are like some stranger somehow.
I dont know whether you can feel it a not?
But i dont feel okay with it.
Maybe there are something you are planning.
I miss you and love you.
I had dreamt of you this few days.
You are always there when i am feeling low.
You was there whenever i needed someone to talk to.
But out of the sudden, we are no longer that close.
I dont know whether you feel that as well.
I just.. hais.. Dont wish to say anymore. )):

2009-09-28T20:30:00.003+08:00

One step closer, I 'll give you one tight slap.

Overall is acceptable in this period of thing.
Time flies. And i mean it.
I dont have enough time for me to rest well as well as study.
I need a tuition teacher now.
To guide me with my maths and biology.
I will gone crazy nowadays.

Dark circles are coming out. T_T
What can i do?
Okay after i posted this, i have to study.
Due to the promises with SOMEONE. ^^
You know who you are okay?

By the way, saw Qihan they all in library.
Such coincidence.
I didnt notice them. ((:

~~~~~~~~END~~~~~~~~~~~

Darling girl called me yesterday.
And said that she is not angry at all.
Of course very happy till i have forget what i memories till where.
Love you~

Today is 28th September 2009.
Its another anniversary.
A special day for you and me.
Dont know whether you remember?
I told you before, Darling. ^^

2009-09-25T00:20:00.005+08:00

Its AZRI's BIRTHDAY YESTERDAY. 24th september.

Sorry didnt wish you birthday or sing a birthday song to you.
Because i cannot do it for this year. ((:
Alright, actually i wanted to send you a message on the 23th sept at 12.
But i didnt make it on time before i turned to pig and SLEEP.
Same scenario like last year birthday i intended tosend you a 10 pages long message.
However, i was always the one sleep first. ((:
Wish you last long with esther okay?
Plus you already turn one year older and FINALLY sixteen.
So, better take care of yourself.
Also, good luck for your N level this year.
I bet you can make it. 100% CONFIDENT IN YOU.
Do yourself proud okay?
Must extremely take care of yourself alright.((:
Since this post is about you, lets recall the our past then.

Maybe it is already over.
But believe me, you gave me a good memories.
Your sweet talks always manage to cheer me up and make my day.
And its REALLY true alright!
All the memories we had together are a little too tough,though.
But the efforts we had put in really worth it i guess.
All the tears that we dropped counts okay? ((:
Actually was happy about that till the very last day we spent together. ((:
You must talk to me~! ((:

Nights everyone.
My love will get you home - peaceful song for all of us. ((:
Hope you all will like it.

2009-09-18T18:30:00.002+08:00

DISAPPOINTED. SAD.

Yesterday was our 1year 7th month anniversary IF we didnt break. ((:
3more days to our 4years anniversary IF we didnt break. ((:
Okay, i just remember those dates out of a sudden.
But THOSE DATES MEAN NOTHING OKAY!

~~~~~~~~~~End~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Not in good mood today.
Darling girl was not in good mood.
Darling girl didnt reply my messages for the first time.
What will happen next?
I am very very sorry if i made you angry or what.

Seriously, i dont know what to say now.
i didnt have the mood to post or everything.
Girls, we will be back like before right?
Promise me, please.
We love each other, dont we?
We bear with each other when we did something wrong, dont we?
Nights )): Bye bye~ )):

2009-09-16T23:00:00.003+08:00

Disappointed. giving up. 4 days.
"Sealed memories with the tears"

Nothing to post actually.
I had spend most of the time studying to make me stop thinking.
I have thought i can spend no time on thinking.
However, i find that i failed to do so.
Its not impossible but..

This few days in school, making me sick of it.
Alot of things to cope, and THINKING AGAIN.
All the thinking are making me more exhausted.
Someone lend me a shoulder , please.

Dreams are killing me.
Its the same old dreams that i had.
I will wake up in the middle of midnight.
Didnt sleep well without it. )):
Goodnight take care sweet dreams for my love~ ((:

2009-09-14T19:35:00.003+08:00

Disappointed. Memories with you is always sweet. ((:

I was listening to this 1st song in my blog while typing.
I am touched by this song. ((:
A beautiful song indeed. (:

I am a little disappointed without knowing why.
On the journey to JP to celebrate HAO's birthday, pictures appeared. ((:
Also, the time we went to YEW TEE to ton long ago~.
Walking through alot of places that i used to go.
The time i was scared to go there, different people held my hands to calm me down.
Now, it was you. ((:
Holding my hands to walk through those fears of mine.
Thanks anyway~ !! ((: LOVE YA~

And the time we ride me back to CCK.
Are you happy??
I dont know. )):
Wondering what are thinking that that point of time.
Thanks for all the times you spent with me~.
At least i am always happy beside you right? ((:
The time you wrote something using your finger on my legs?
Baby, it's pretty sweet, you know?
Because i get what you mean~ ((:

i don't know whether you noticed the time we taking bus 172?
When i am leaning on you?
And wrote something on your arms.
No matter what, the second sentence i wrote..
I MEAN IT, i really do mean it. ((:
I dont know whether you know what is it..
But hope you and i can feel it without saying out those words.

I dont know whether you are angry with me anot?
Cause you really look angry that day.
No matter what i write for the third sentence i wrote on your arms..
I am sorry.
I really hate to have those feelings. ):
But i sense how you feel on that day.
The way you smile doesn't look like you.
Whatever it is, take care of yourself.
I wanted you to be happy, no matter what. ((:
By the way, before you carry me that day.
I dream of that scenario earlier on.
Bye bye. Thanks. ((:

I will give you the goodnight **** .
Remember it okay?
Dont forget all the memories, please~ ! ):
Goodnight,take care .sweet dreams. muacks~!