Music,friends,family is my life. A person that leads a normal,simple life. Lived happily with MY LOVELY and CARING sister.
MYSELF
I'm WANYEE aka JOWYN
18 years old
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/ Wednesday, May 9, 2012 @ 12:29 AM
I wanted to be a normal girl, with a happy family,good friends,bf.
Am i asking too much..
Or am i that useless..
Feeling demoralised nowadays whereby im looking down on myself..
Why must l keep disappointing everyone around me.. They should be happy, proud of me, having no troubles because im putting their unhappiness on me.. Been trying so hard to manage myself, coping, loving myself, but it seems like my efforts are wasted.. But even its so, i could drop a single tear in front of them, mirror or myself.
Im kinda having illusions for scary things and couldn't sleep soundly at night. Did not dare to look at the mirror to face me, cause i've been disappointing myself like so long..
Wanted to have the feeling of someone in my life replenished the hole again and again that makes me feel im not that unfortunate. And i even understood, actually im more fortunate that others who are handicaps etc.. so i must value myself.
Today's post is only for complaining and disappointing.
I wanted to be a normal girl, with a happy family,good friends,bf.
Am i asking too much..
Or am i that useless..
Feeling demoralised nowadays whereby im looking down on myself..
Why must l keep disappointing everyone around me.. They should be happy, proud of me, having no troubles because im putting their unhappiness on me.. Been trying so hard to manage myself, coping, loving myself, but it seems like my efforts are wasted.. But even its so, i could drop a single tear in front of them, mirror or myself.
Im kinda having illusions for scary things and couldn't sleep soundly at night. Did not dare to look at the mirror to face me, cause i've been disappointing myself like so long..
Wanted to have the feeling of someone in my life replenished the hole again and again that makes me feel im not that unfortunate. And i even understood, actually im more fortunate that others who are handicaps etc.. so i must value myself.
Today's post is only for complaining and disappointing.
