Music,friends,family is my life. A person that leads a normal,simple life. Lived happily with MY LOVELY and CARING sister.
MYSELF
I'm WANYEE aka JOWYN
18 years old
band berlin carol cherylyn ♥ jazreel kerylyn;Lijuan ♥ kristein;yeecheng ♥ qianyun qijun raiyan sherry yongchuan vanessa ♥
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/ Monday, May 24, 2010 @ 1:15 AM
DEMORALISED.
Don't understand why.
I just feel extremely tired nowadays.
I missed all the interesting part of my life.
Find it hard to understand and dont know the reasons for that.
And not knowing how to replenish that "BIG HOLE".
Everyday feel like pon-ed school.
Everyday see different things, met different things.
Problem solving, problem statement, programming codes, mathematics.
What kind of life is that?
I wondered how am i supposed to cope with this kind of situation.
Forcing a bloody fucking smile.
Sometimes i really missed all the aunties in my work place.
Whenever i went back, i feel like crying.
I dont know why. Maybe missed them badly or perhaps just want to work at there.
I thought i will be able to use to this kind of life.
Everything is not what i thought.
I wished i could do everything best.
Put in more efforts and what it comes out was otherwise.
I find it difficult to cope.
I thought i can be the one you wanted me to become.
I am wrong. I am tired and speechless.
I am too tired now babe. Really.
You taught me alot of things.
How to love, forgive, cry, stop crying, miss, lose, independent.
BUT, You never teach me how to forget.
Just miss everything. My friends, love, family.
Drink because of you, Stopped because of you.
Pierce because of you, Tired because of you.
Missed because of you, Wondered because of you.
Failed because of you, Smile because of you....
DEMORALISED.
Don't understand why.
I just feel extremely tired nowadays.
I missed all the interesting part of my life.
Find it hard to understand and dont know the reasons for that.
And not knowing how to replenish that "BIG HOLE".
Everyday feel like pon-ed school.
Everyday see different things, met different things.
Problem solving, problem statement, programming codes, mathematics.
What kind of life is that?
I wondered how am i supposed to cope with this kind of situation.
Forcing a bloody fucking smile.
Sometimes i really missed all the aunties in my work place.
Whenever i went back, i feel like crying.
I dont know why. Maybe missed them badly or perhaps just want to work at there.
I thought i will be able to use to this kind of life.
Everything is not what i thought.
I wished i could do everything best.
Put in more efforts and what it comes out was otherwise.
I find it difficult to cope.
I thought i can be the one you wanted me to become.
I am wrong. I am tired and speechless.
I am too tired now babe. Really.
You taught me alot of things.
How to love, forgive, cry, stop crying, miss, lose, independent.
BUT, You never teach me how to forget.
Just miss everything. My friends, love, family.
Drink because of you, Stopped because of you.
Pierce because of you, Tired because of you.
Missed because of you, Wondered because of you.
Failed because of you, Smile because of you....
