/ Saturday, September 29, 2007 @ 12:18 PM

ytd is a day tat i actually collapsed.. zhen de hao lei hao lei... quarrel with my dadiie, and sis. dun0 why i feel like im so extra in this hse.. maybe without mi, will be more peaceful barhs... ytd so sick still must quarrel with them.... the storyy beqins when mi and myy primary skool fren in mac studyinq. my sis wanted mi to follow her to thhe nanny hse to brinq her baby back hm... but i just seated down.. and had just brought my food.. dhen she insisted to come to the mac.... when she reached, she stared at mi, and ask mi faster eat... dhen i just do as wartt she sayy... but dhen she stand there and stared mi eat... how am i surposed to eat faster.. i feel so weird.. and to my surprised.... she qo to the counter and take one plastic baqq and ask mi to qo hm... i damn fed up larhs... its like... my fren is there, and i promised her to study with her, but due to her fcukinq reason, and let be psinq my frens.. how will mmy fren feel siiah... and she know how i feel anot?! if im the one doinq tat in front of her frens... she will definitely feel bad ryt? dhen stiill ok.. nvm.. i walk hm with herr... when i reached hm. my dad kb mi.. its like wart thhe.. i not like nvr reached hm early lorhs. i reached hm around 2 plus... and tell my mum i will qo out to mac there, to help my fren with her studies... dhen he accusinq mi tat im lyinq... and i tried to explain to him.. he said tat i said tat :"im comiinq back frm cck mac now.." its like i didnt say l0rhs.. i say i studyinq with my frens.. dhen still nvm.. wo ren... but, he said a thinq tat i really damn dislike... he sayy my ex and mi sittinq outside hse dun0 do wartt. and he say he allowed guys to come in our hse... its like wartt thhe... he oso dun0 he is not chinese... say till i very cheap... and most i think most ridiculous is one thinq... he said he trust mi before.... he did not knoe tat he didnt qiiv mi any trust, his trust is only wartt he say, but not wartt his hartt is sayiinq... i ask him back, how much he understand mi? he said im his daughter, how come he dun understand.. is like... he dun0 wartt im askinq oso.. i hate he say my mum... i just simply hate him.. say my mum why chanqe the air-con. cant he see how my mum is tryinq to solve thhe prob? he is thhe one sayinq, the air-con hav some sort of sound.. and keep complaininq, and scold us for so many tinks... he just dun understand... i tel him, i dun wan to quarrel with him, cause when we quarrel, he sure high blood pressure... and he say i dun understand him, and accuse mi cannot control myself to with the bad ppl... dhen i ask him back, if i dun understand ue, i wont be keepinq quiet and sayinq i dun wan to be qo back to primary 6 where i talk back to him, and lead to the high blood pressure... and i tell him tat.. if i cannot control myself, i will be worst than my sis lerr, and i study is not because of myself, is because i dun wan him to be disappointed aqaiin... tats yy i started to study very hard, but his many time of no trust, i qiv upp... wartt ii do is wronq.. actually he dun0 tat i hav alr tolerate for 7yrs lerr... 7yrs is not lonq.. but toleration hav the limited derr... finally, i collapsed... but at least hav someone to chat with mi... but i just cant understand why cant he just qiv mi some trust... tis is wartt i disappointed abt.. but at least someone chat with mi barhs... but at least in skool, some laughter barhs.. mi and my frens qo down to the recess at 10am!!! we still dun0 we qo wronq recess until i ask them, why now q0rtt so manyy lower secondary students... dhen one of my fren dhen remember tat we still hav bio lesson!! *first time feel so disappointed... through no one supported mi throughout now.

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